SGFBBW Looking for same!!

So today Joni and I hanged out. We went off to lunch at Apple Bees. Thank Goodness! They have a weight watchers menu. I am not about to go over my points today, Wednesday or Thursday... hope not Friday. Anyways, I am seeing that she is sure spending more time with Brad. She talking about how she has to tell Brad's mom that she wants to go out for dinner and not at his parent's house. Joni's TN family coming up here around the 2nd of June. And his mom wants to have EVERYONE over. Even Buddy & wife & KIDS!! Anyways, as she is going on about this. I find myself being selfish and wishing that I had this "problem". Scared of my family meeting my gf's family... and all that comes along with that. Why is it so hard to find a good-personaily trusting talkive inputting woman over the age of 32 in my area just for me? Yeah I just have soo many things that I am required of. It's so not true. The things I want.. should be things that come along with a relationship. I have been talking to this one chick... omg shes crazy. Never really talked about her.. cause I am not into her. I do how-ever find myselfing wanting to go to better someone else. Just hate that who.. "she into me that way or not?" I guess thats just something I have to work on myself. I think I am strong willed... just someone I just feel like how I am now. Maybe I am just feeling like this.. because of the lack of food!!! LOL.