Sick of being Sick

I have come to see that I have been up and down in the feeling sick department. I ended up going home on saturday after working only two hours. Now, its late on Sunday night... still feeling like shit.. hope that it would come to an end soon. Hope will be having those interviews end of the week.
I have not been taking care of myself either. I guess thats also part of the problem. Not eating right.. not caring right now that I am putting on the pounds.. not going to the fitness center or even to the YMCA.
Along with this.. comes part of me thinking why she didnt tell me. What happened to telling me.. I have had this happened before. And I lost them both.
This is eating away at me.... making into a bigger hole as the days go on.. digging deeper and deeper. Comes to be more than just what it started to be.. Comes to be... I am also gettiing fat.. not getting younger (some would say I dont look over 23 years old), not working a fulltime heath ins normal work week with weekends off... Able to see a doctor for this cold... back to going back to bed... staying there till another day comes along.

Goodnitters