Deep Hot Bubble Bath

Ending my day with a nice hot bubble bath. Just relaxing.. closing my eyes... relaxing my mind... let it think freely. At the end of the day... watching the day come to a close.. thinking of things to come.. what to happen... where would I be in 24 hours from now. Will I be in a bubble bath again... or on a cold steel slate? Never know what the day will bring. I'm happy to know how I stand with my faith and my feelings my mind my heart and soul.

Somedays I wonder how He takes care of my crazy life. Not working.. having enough money... worried about my mom's health... doing what I can to help my own health. At the same time, I am falling short of what I should be doing. Making Him a bigger part of my life. I have found that... after growning up, not being forced into the church... sunday school... Bibble study.. be around people that dont truthy love one other unless you do what "they" say. Making up their own rules/laws that doesnt even come close to what I believe. Love one another...

I find myself wanting to go to church that is open.. to all kinds of people. That are able to come together and be as one in workship and in sprint. Having a strong friend in my life that has the same basic beliefs is a blesing. She truthy has helped me in so many ways that she will never know about till the one day we are running through the wild flowered hills with birds and woodpeekers singing songs to Him... swimming among the crystal seas.. hanging around the pearl gates. Having our Manisons side by side. Meeting my grandma martin and my aunt vickie. Love ones that have always been in a part of my childhood and the years that I live now. Find myself wiping tears of saddness of what might become of the ones that I love here on earth... what a hardship that will never end. Many tears also falling of the happiness of will come. The days will come.

A Blink of a Eye