What a FREAKING Drama DAY!!

It all started my day with a text... " good morning. Im not gonna b able 2go away 4 our weekend 2 gether. Im Sorry." My replied.. well if you think that.. and go me no reason to why not.. oo well!.. Than I get this text about how much she is in debt... and she feels like I rushed into a desion and I am not ready for it... part of that is her (she says( fault. Now, she calls... I have really nothing to say to her at this point. I am boiling pissed. She asked.. told me.. for about 3-4 months about how great it would be for us to be a couple.. we should become gfs.. " i love you" (she said meant in a caring way) *I never say it unless ment it... guess thats just me*. So, Saturday I did tell her that I would become her gf.. that she has some things that she can offer to me. On the phone she asked what they were.. that she was just a normal person. If, she cant know for herself.. I guess she doesnt know enough of herself to offer me anything. I would be wrong. I sent her a nice email..explaining how I stand and what pisses me off. No reply yet.

At work. Damn.. I think it was give Cindy every problem there is. Vickie is helping in the gift shop and Jennifer is on break. Lady comes up to the desk (she is staff at work) and says, I cant find one out of the two books I have checked out. I found the price and changed the prices..ect. The other one, she said shes gonna keep on looking for it. The one book was about $38.00. She gave me a cc and wanted to charge $32.04 (odd number.. must be max out) I hardy collect the fines in the computer before running the card. Just after I hit it.. "ooo my//damn it" I ran the card.. YEAH!! what an ass... the card exp back in 2005. REMEMBER SHE WORKS AT MY JOB!!! So, tonight the fine was over.. due to that. Now, onto the other thing with her. She has a interlibrary loan book out in her name. WHICH, has coffee on the first 40 pages. This has never happened to me. .. I had to leave notes for the person charge with that in tech services. (God, I hope to get the other library job) Big mess with her. On top of all that.. people are checking in and out things.. Lady comes down with her kid and wants to buy a new card. " I looked all over my house, I cant find it.. I'll pay the $5" So, I put in a new bar code.. collected the $5 in the computer.. she signs it. Just about to check out the books to her. BINGO.. I found my card!. YEah.. This has never happened .. to me.. So she be getting refund of $5 in the mail. ASS! Then man comes up to the desk to tell me that the men's bathroom sink has blood in it. Trying to call CS.. and get that fixed. Ref desk Joe (awsome gy.. so sad to see him go end of the term) calling wanting me to change the stats on a book from missing to on shelve. Had to leave him go to get CS.. call her back... still checking in and out. Giving out change for copies. Vickie still over the art shop... Jennifer still on break. I am running back for a journal...bitching... Prof. drops off speech tapes to put on one hour res. in library use only. I cant think. I am looking at the book to find what to do. Vickie comes back.. helps me out. I am having tears rolling down my face.. from the pressure. ... ect...ect... I am getting mad at myself for getting mad at stuff like this... another thing happens. After break, I go down strairs to av department.. where its cold and I am about to fall asleep.

okay, i am HOME THANK GOD. My iChat stops working.. and my tech support is in bed.. GRRR!! After 30mins of trying to find out whats wrong... I ended up DLing AIM from AOL.com.. and for some reason it takes my SN, that I have been using for about a year. And now, Its working... but all the buddies are no longer on it. ASSSHOLEE!!!

OOOOO She still hasnt sent me an email back.... am I single???

yeah... I asked GOD to help.


I NEED to go back to the YMCA and get to eating less than 2000calores. I have not been doing that since Thrusday!! 9 weeks to go.