Joni, Brad, Me and Debbie

All four of us went out to lunch Sunday afternoon. At a place where I shouldnt of gone. All I need to say is on HWY 50 in Wisconsin!!! olol Anyways, this is the first time Debbie met a friend of mine... (other than Tony back first of the year). I count on my friends imput a lot for advice. In the pass, Joni has been the friend " if you like her... I say go for it" This is the first time she went, " you two are so different, a friend yeah, gf I dont know". What to do now.
All day Sunday, Debbie was on her cell phone. Really started to piss me off when she got on it on the drive back to my house. The whole time. What ever happened to talking and saying good bye. She sure know I didnt know it. I'll just tell you, then beating around the bush. Then last night, I get a text about that I am sorry and I wish you would give us a chance. Her and I have talked about the idea of an us. And I am not ready for that. We do not know each other enough. I find myself picking on every little thing about her or about I. It has been getting worst. That I know why!! She kept on pushing the issue of a couple in the last few weeks. Last night, I felt like I was standing on a chair in the corner... no where to go. Either break it all off.. and say I am done.. no more dating.. or just jump into the fire and be her gf. I really didnt want either. I explained this to her today, and she got it. But then again she has said she did before. And we are back to where we are. There wont be a next time for sure. I cant be dragging myself like it.
Anyways, what would really change anyways.. if her and I are gfs now?? We dont see each other much. She doesnt know me well.. and i dont with her. So, I guess I would be unhappy and want to break it off. OOO What the F**K, I am scared of relationships anyways!! The people think I want more of it... its not truth.. the ones that I want more of it and make it known.. isnt true for them LOL.

damn... when is my DSL coming!!!! I want to just run Safari without signing on dailup on AOL. I am so sick of AOL, now, I see why I left YEARS ago.