Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas

I have not been online for a few weeks.. and since I am in TN by PC, think i'll check email. Did that earlier and sent a finally email to Jeannine. Okay heres the freaking break down. In last 2-3 weeks I called her work two times, called her at home.. emailed her from the personail ad so I can see if she is around (which she picked up email) then sent her a Christmas card. So, today I sent her another email... whats going on.. worried about you ect. Yeah I got email back tonight. I'm so busy with working both jobs (okay Jules works 200am/400am till 700/900pm and we still chat *short* but chat) *I know shes a live* And then the email goes on to say... i got a gf and I have been adoving you... didnt know how to tell you.
I am soo not hurt that we didnt become gfs.. but really pissed off and hurt that she couldnt even tell me. Come on.. I serious was thinking we could be friends... but if she cant even tell me that she has a gf... what the f*ck is that!!
It seems that most the women that I have met from this personail ad, hasnt really added up to at least great friends. Tonja only calls when her and her gf are having problems. We met on my b-day last year ** yeah great way to start my bday soon... pissed off** Tonja and I knew that we couldnt be gfs. Jessica yeah she is too much of a player for pretties... (rolling eyes) Now, I am 2nd guessing on everyone else. What now Deb gonna come up with something else... or Jules not wanna be friends cause she with her gf paula. DAMN!! Jules one that I want now!!! And its been that was for about a month. But I am seeing Deb... and liking her. I am just dating now... dont want a relationship right now.. maybe a few months from now. Sorry Jeannine, not that type to just jump into a relationship in a week. lol (rolling eyes)

Okay, Now I am really bitchy and I need to get some f*cking sleep cause Joni and I are leaving in early AM to head back to Chicago (home) And tonight also found out that Mary (boss at work), her mom died. So, I got sleepy, bitchy, "friend" cant tell me the truth up front, and death. Happy Holidays to me.

Thank goodness... Tony and I gonna go to Charles for NewYEars!!! $50 for unlimited drinks alll f*cking night long... maybe I got to the point of drinking, where I really go throwup all the next day! Never got that drunk before. Really feeling it now.

This thing happened a few days ago. OMG it was so freaking hot!!.

At least leave on a happier note... yeah her having a gf.. doesnt help. LOL Me and women that are taken. I think there should be a support group for that.

Bye bye for now...