What a last few days. I am cool about J.. yeah she sounded like is sick.. and was sleeping. Wondering if she went to work today.. when she is feeling better to go out again. I am soo femme.. God, sometimes it drives me up the wall LOL.
I am feeling like my life is not as I know it. There are some emptyness that I want to be filled with happeniess and love. That leads me to want to date... hope a gf... relationship.. the whole 9 years.. Heck, we are talking about me.. throw in an extra yard.
I can't believe that she is somewhat serious about her and her gf on the journaly of kids... wow, how what you think is one thing, turns out to be another. Like, as a child just crawling then learns how to walk. Does the child think... is this how I am to be living my life.. or should I just stay and crawl?? That's how I am seeing a crossroads in my life.
A great friend once told me that... if your late 20s, you will start to evaluate your life. When she told me that, I was thinking no way... I am 24 I know what I want. Now, I am in my late 20s.. yeah, you are so right !!
Tomorrow is Tuesday... wondering if I'll be lucky to go out with J. See what happens.
Since I have tomorrow off, I am going to a few places to find hoilday help. I really need to find another part time job for that reason. MONEY!!! I am seeing I am getting soo broke. It would be soo much worst if I didnt leave school. So hard with paying photo stuff... food money.. Metra tickets.. yeah, use that money to pay bills and go out to enjoy myself.