!!!ooo wow I need to stop eating sooo much!!!

In the last three days.. I have most likey ate enough to fed a small country. I have a new journal to write down and count the calories. I know it works for me.. just need to do it. I have to get back on track to loss some weight. I don't have the "get up and go" like a did a month ago. I have no excuse now.. no school..no homework.. printing..shooting.. all that sh!t.
I have an interview with American Girl on Tuesday in the morning. It's just a seasonal job. Just need a parttime job to hold me over for the mid-Dec to Mid-feb when I have a full paycheck. I am really need to move on. I really really hate that I am almost 29.. and I am not working fulltime. I know it's a turn off for some woman... but I am working on it. I dont wanna leave here for I job that I know I will not be happy in. If theres a chance I will.. I'll leave. And before I leave here.. I am soo gonna use as much sick leave as I can... all my personal time.. two discretionary day and maybe all my specail emergency..only 6.5 hours of that. I'm holding onto my vacation time.. because that be a nice check for about 70hours.
J and I went out last night. I ate wayyy too much. It was nice to hear from her. I enjoy spending time with her. Suprized her with flowers. lol yeah, I do buy flowers.. LOL
Thrusday night date.. oooo yeah, I told her I would go on another date.. but its gonna be smiple and I gonna have to tell her that I dont want to go out again. I am a woman of my word. Hate breaking a promise. All she does is talk about sex. I felt like shit after our date. I came home and stayed in the shower for about 20mins... had to wash away anything left. THANKGOD DIDNT HAVE SEX WITH HER!!! I shouldnt feel like that after a date.
I ended up telling Dells butch all what happened. She makes a good friend. I needed a kick in the ass for way I was thinking about what happened. I know that I should get better than that. I was just in that funk. Seeing, J made it a lot better.
So my mom is coming around about me being gay. Not like it took her sooo many years. ooOo 10 years plus. Anyways, last week J took me out and ended a perfect night with flowers.. awww wild flowers... smells so good. On monday or tuesday.. I was changing the water again and cutting the good ones and throwing away the died ones. I said kind of joking to my mom "maybe i'll get more flowers on Thrusday" She said for what.. I said going out on a date.. drum roll please... her reply was... even Joni was shocked..." are you going out with the same WOMAN?" OMG I didnt know what to say... I CANT believe that she said WOMAN!!!! wow!!! About freaking time!!!! yeah, I got flowers and they were mostly dead. J's was prettier and nicer.