I'm feeling green today... just an as in sick.. just the blues.. I guess I'll be going to the club alone (without a date) was really looking forward to it. ooo well.. and I was willing to pay. Tony is today's bday.. big 29 (really 39). Going over to Cathy's after work for food and drinks. I need to change my mood before I go over there.. cause right now I dont feel like going to club tonight.
Went to Dells Thursday night.. had fun. She really treated me like I was specail. I havnt had that happen to me in a long time. It's not the money spent, but how you use what you have and ideas. I don't of any relationship to come of it.. she is in love/relationship with this str8woman. long story. Got to sleep in the "play pen" lol she has a king size bed. tooo big for me, felt like I was lost lol Friday went to ind. to meet up with Dawn. Hmm.. yeah 93 miles one way, not gonna do that again around trip in one day. Didnt like that I have to pay my way for everything. I was thinking she could at least buy movie (omg I was a harry potter movie KARI!! yeah I was lost) or at least dinner. I did drive all the way down there.. and on the way back I bitched about her to Dells. She wouldnt even hold my hand in the movies. I asked her if it was okay. if not tell me!! Later that night she called me, and I told her whats up with that. "i get scared.... ect ect blah blah blah" come on. She said she wants to see me again. Who knows (rolling eyes) just have to come to more of an understanding with time and money.

Today is my LAST DAY of eating carefree. Sunday back on watch what I eat. I need to do that, since I told Dells of an idea of calories to eat to loss weight. Yeah, I should follow my own advice. I guess I wont loss a dress size this year. I have been lossing at least one to one half size per year.. since size 32. No 24 by newyears.

okay.. i need to get happy again.. 25mins left of work... wowoeoeee

Then put Peanuts DVD set into the bag and sign the dick card. Tony is a gay guy.. explains everything... LOL

PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!