Well.. Welll.. Well.. I am back. Just sitting here at work wondering why I stoped blogging. I cant come up with an answer. So I am just here.. to be here.

As reading back from last year or two.. I saw that my weight didnt change that much. I am still in the same areas. I guess what I am doing is not working. Sometimes I think I do need a medical diet or the lap ban done. Two things that I cant do due to lack of funds and too freaking scared of anything to do with the medical feild.

Tomorrow.. I swear!! I will go to the gym. Today I started to eat somewhat better than I have on vacation in Tenn (which I hated). For the next month I am not eating no type of bread. Doing this I would be eating for fruits. Its the time of the year for it.

When is it going to be fall?? I love to watch the trees change with mgcial colors. But when that times... It means I need to pick. Do I run the idea of returning back to school and run the risk of having to pay back if I get that 9 month or fulltime job. Hell.. its my 3-4 time typing to get a job at this fuking job. Maybe its a sign to move on. see what happens.

I think it would be awsome to work for a gay/lesbian company. But now my friend is saying she is not getting paid. Theres no way I would last 4-5 days without pay. Not everyone has a savings like that.