Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas

I have not been online for a few weeks.. and since I am in TN by PC, think i'll check email. Did that earlier and sent a finally email to Jeannine. Okay heres the freaking break down. In last 2-3 weeks I called her work two times, called her at home.. emailed her from the personail ad so I can see if she is around (which she picked up email) then sent her a Christmas card. So, today I sent her another email... whats going on.. worried about you ect. Yeah I got email back tonight. I'm so busy with working both jobs (okay Jules works 200am/400am till 700/900pm and we still chat *short* but chat) *I know shes a live* And then the email goes on to say... i got a gf and I have been adoving you... didnt know how to tell you.
I am soo not hurt that we didnt become gfs.. but really pissed off and hurt that she couldnt even tell me. Come on.. I serious was thinking we could be friends... but if she cant even tell me that she has a gf... what the f*ck is that!!
It seems that most the women that I have met from this personail ad, hasnt really added up to at least great friends. Tonja only calls when her and her gf are having problems. We met on my b-day last year ** yeah great way to start my bday soon... pissed off** Tonja and I knew that we couldnt be gfs. Jessica yeah she is too much of a player for pretties... (rolling eyes) Now, I am 2nd guessing on everyone else. What now Deb gonna come up with something else... or Jules not wanna be friends cause she with her gf paula. DAMN!! Jules one that I want now!!! And its been that was for about a month. But I am seeing Deb... and liking her. I am just dating now... dont want a relationship right now.. maybe a few months from now. Sorry Jeannine, not that type to just jump into a relationship in a week. lol (rolling eyes)

Okay, Now I am really bitchy and I need to get some f*cking sleep cause Joni and I are leaving in early AM to head back to Chicago (home) And tonight also found out that Mary (boss at work), her mom died. So, I got sleepy, bitchy, "friend" cant tell me the truth up front, and death. Happy Holidays to me.

Thank goodness... Tony and I gonna go to Charles for NewYEars!!! $50 for unlimited drinks alll f*cking night long... maybe I got to the point of drinking, where I really go throwup all the next day! Never got that drunk before. Really feeling it now.

This thing happened a few days ago. OMG it was so freaking hot!!.

At least leave on a happier note... yeah her having a gf.. doesnt help. LOL Me and women that are taken. I think there should be a support group for that.

Bye bye for now...

Hi everyone...

I'm not feeling the best tonight.. really REALLY sleepy. Almost fell asleep on my 25min break. And believe me the chair wasnt conforable.
So... Friday... I am meeting up with Deb. Yeah shes not pick of the litter, but my options are not open for what I want. Anyways.. she got a hotal and wants to take me out for dinner. I'm cool with the hotal thing. Hell I could use some sex after all the long freaking hours I been putting in. Heck, dont have time to masterbate.
She said shes a "butch" in bed. (nonlesbians... meaning she wants to top me)*explain enough* well.. we will see. Shes so femme when it comes to feelings and stuff like that. It's all good, but shes way to femme.
I am having a bad feeling that nothing is gonna happen with Jules. WHich freaking sucks because I do like her. She's one I have been thinking of... Yeah kind of scarey.. since she is ALSO in LOVE with some str8 chick. (rolling eyes). I was hopping to see Jules soon.. but looks like I wont beable to for a few months. Not gonna say anything.. just see what happens when I see her again. Unless some butch/woman comes along and picks me up. (I'm working the street corner of 5th ave and Michigan Ave) LOL
Sooooooo.. I have gained some serious weight since working at American Girl. Yeah they sure love to feed ya... mosty high sugar sweets. Since it's the 14th... the lunch at AG is over.. and there is just little over a week left till end of there.. I am back on tomorrow. Work is now at 700am.. not 630 or 600.. so I have time to make/plan a snack and lunch. I have been working on drinking water. Finally, been about to get pee latey. lol.
I'm wondering how I would be tasteing now since I havnt had much water drink latey. Yeah she most likey wouldnt want to do it... who knows. The other week.. I so wanted to feel J-Zion chick. And see how wet she was.. when we were fuking.
Yeah, I need sex.. so I can shut up about it LOL

Yeah I am back... hope everyone is doing great.

I'm working at American Girl now.. I am to stay till the 23rd but dont think that's gonna happen. I told the manger that I need the 20th and 21st off. Yeah kind of a white lie. There wasnt much overtime hours for me this pay period. I have bee sick since Tuesday afternoon. It's doing better, but no french kissing for me. I so wanted too Friday night. grrrr !!

Yeah the whole talk about counting calories and getting back on track. So, way the fuckoff from counting. I am feeling that my "sexy jeans" are not so sexy..more of I am too freaking fat for them. Keep this up, there goes the idea of "size 22" (wink)

So, Jules... yeah thats a story in itself. Last night we were talking about holiday shopping and what she already has. A gift for her "gf" yeah I said girlfriend. How she had it for a few weeks and that it was there then when I was up there. OOO i said didnt see it.. it was sitting right by the door. (rolling eyes) she saying how she doesnt know how to wrap it up since its a 2x2 foot box. I told her that.."I'll wrap it" (yeah sick that I still want to wrap gifts) She was like.. no thats too weild... yeah your "mistress" wrapping gift for your gf. Then she said the craziest thing. "you are not my mistress" she wouldnt give me another answer to what I would be. She has said "my two girlfriends" Jules been saying that for about a week now... also along with that she asking me.. or more like teasing me.. "you and your women" yeah whatever. She knows whats up. They all do. I am only really want to get to know two of them. The 3rd is more of a back burner. yeah, I guess I have self esstem issue.

Dude, back of my legs hurt!! Just getting up from the chair.. it hurts. Believe me, its not bad like it was about a month ago. Wondering why it does? LOL
I was joking with Tony on Saturday about how can he just put his legs over him and get fuckedlike that.. then not be sore. LOL He is sure doing it more than me. LOL Damn queen. Deen is still going after Tony.. he needs to cut back on the chasing... or he gonna loss all together.

I'm almost done with Joni's Christmas gift. I'm kinda making a basket with all different things. It will turn out cute. Kari's gift gonna be easy. I know what to get her. Just need to get that in the mail soon. Tony's gonna be one of the most costy. I really want to get tickets to see Wicked. The cheapest is about $50... to $125. I want to get good ones.. maybe about $80 per ticket. He would be soo happy.. dont think someone else would get him that. He freaken loved his bday gift on the Peanuts on DVD. :-P hahahaa Migel.. you suck! :-P